So I'm 19 and I have episodes of depression and anxiety. The problem is that I can't talk my parents because they're strict Christians and they'll tell me to pray it off, and I can't really talk to a therapist because they're practically non existent here. I'll probably get ridiculed by my friends if they knew so that's not an option either.
Honestly, it's this vauge feeling of longing and dissatisfaction. The fact that I can't wrap my head around it totally makes me really mad.
People might say I'm just seeking attention, but maybe on some level I actually am. I grew used to being left alone when I was little so I barely developed any social skills, not like I'd have needed them considering I wasn't allowed to socialize much.
I think the toll of having no one around is finally getting to me.
My whole mind is such a mess right now and it confuses me.
Sounds like a bit of an abusive childhood although I don't know all the details. Do you live in the suburbs? You mentioned therapists being nowhere where you are at. Have you tried any hotlines? When you think about it that is just a call away no matter where you are located.